The Best Excuse

Things have been sporadic around these parts. I’m sure you’ve noticed so let’s talk about it. There are a LOT of you who have been reading since I started WAY back in 2006 so sit down and grab something to drink. I’m about to be extremely transparent.

My life kinda spiraled out of control. That’s truly about the only way to describe it. Things went crazy and I filed for divorce. Pick your jaw up, it’s ok. I promise. I’m good, the kids are good WE ARE GOOD. Jesus & therapy. Best combination ever.

**FYI I WILL NOT EVER TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED AND IF YOU ASK I WILL TELL YOU TO KICK ROCKS…SERIOUSLY**

Why am I telling you this? BECAUSE IT BECAME THE BEST EXCUSE EVER. 

For a good while I stopped EVERYTHING. I wasn’t blogging consistently, I wasn’t posting on social media consistently, I wasn’t sewing consistently. NOTHING. Why? I was using my new excuse. It WORKED. People understood. I stopped taking orders. I stopped talking to my friends. I stopped going to my church. EVERYTHING just stopped. I had nothing at all to give. Period.

For a while, I didn’t want it bad enough anymore, I had a new excuse. If you ALWAYS have an excuse, you just don’t want it enough. That’s my opinion and I’m sticking to it.

 

For a moment, everything suffered. I had unhappy family, unhappy friends and I had unhappy clients. To be honest, the unhappy clients bothered me the most.

I wasn’t operating in my gift, I wasn’t using my talent and my business suffered. MY DREAMS SUFFERED. 

I wasn’t setting goals, I wasn’t making plans and all the goals and plans that I had went totally out the window. It TRULY set me back. More than I can even put into words. I wasn’t making ANY progress. Why? I had an excuse. Emotionally I was good with the decision that I made.

Mentally, I was completely exhausted. I mean DRAINED. I had NOTHING to give. To anyone. Not to my family, not to my friends and definitely not to my business. I was ALMOST ready to quit. I just zoned out. I put up a GOOD front. I smiled. I even TRIED posting but it was’t there. I wasn’t feeling it. It wasn’t coming from my heart.

I needed to make up my mind to get up and STOP MAKING EXCUSES because excuses were getting me absolutely NO WHERE.

I had to make up my mind that I wanted it. I wanted to be happy. I wanted my business. I wanted it ALL.

I started journaling again. HEAVILY. Keeping track of ALL my thoughts. My emotions, my feelings. I started praying again. Meditating on The Word and I started LIVING. I stopped making excuses. I’m tired. I don’t feel well, I’m not available, I’m not taking orders. I stopped them ALL.

Do you know what happens when you STOP making excuses?

Y’all. I grew up. I matured. BIG TIME.

I’m in such a better place today. I’m back on track. I’m happy, well you know what? I have JOY. There IS a difference.  My business is no longer suffering. I had to take my time and get back into it. I still have some things that I won’t do until October but I’m back at it. I’m blessed. I’m thankful.

Why did I share this? Because my excuse almost caused me to let go of my dreams. Don’t let anything or anyone discourage you. You can move forward no matter what YOUR excuse is.

You CAN do it. Surround yourself with people who believe in you, support you and surround you with positive energy. SERIOUSLY.

I’m so excited about this next chapter and I can not WAIT to share what is to come.

Adrienne