Soul Food: My Walk with God | Suicide is not the answer.

Soul Food: My Walk with God | Suicide is not the answer.

This past week I was traveling from Atlanta (I went that morning and came right back that evening) and as I was driving along I-20 West I saw a lot of commotion on the East bound side.

The closer I got I saw what appeared to be people struggling. The cars were parked at a super weird angle, for them to be on an overpass. I slowed down along with all the other traffic ahead of me.

I kept looking (as I was talking to my mom on the phone) and I saw people trying to keep another person (couldn’t tell if it was a male or a female) from jumping off of the overpass.

As I went under where they were on the opposite side of the interstate, I looked in my rear view mirror and saw them get away from the people trying to hold them and then saw what I wish I could un-see.

The next vehicle that came by hit them. It was an 18-wheeler.

That messed me up so bad. I was talking to my mom and I was so shaken up I had to pull over. I lost track of time I stayed on the side of the road for so long. Praying for everyone who had been involved and witnessed such a horrific event.

What normally takes me around 2 hours took me SEVERAL hours to get home. I couldn’t drive. I couldn’t focus for very long. I was a mess.

Once I got home I completely lost it. I broke all the way down. I had nightmares every time I closed my eyes. I didn’t sleep for almost four days.

I prayed and cried and just prayed and cried. It was really all I knew how to do.

Once I finally got myself together (and even now it’s STILL hard to get that sight out of my head) I started thinking.

What makes a person want to give up on life? Please don’t get me wrong, I understand depression is REAL. I’ve never suffered from depression or had suicidal thoughts so I don’t know what that’s like.

It’s so sad to think that things can get so bad you will want to end your life.

I serve a God who is bigger than ANY problem that we can face.

I was talking to a friend and she sent me this link which is FULL of scripture if you find yourself in a dark place:

Scriptures Against Suicide

Here are some of my favorite scriptures of hope/encouragement from the above article:

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusts in Thee. Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength. (Perfect means complete. If I keep my part of the promise by staying steadfastly focused on the Lord Jesus Christ, He will keep His promise to give me His perfect peace. Isaiah 26:3-4

Nevertheless God, that comforts, those that are depressed, comforted us by the coming of Titus; And not by his coming only, but by the consolation wherewith he was comforted in you, when he told us your earnest desire, your mourning, your fervent mind toward me; so that I rejoiced the more. II Corinthians 7:6-7

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7

That’s about all I had to say. Just want to encourage someone. You may not need encouraging, you may not be in a dark place but if you know someone who is encourage them.

I’m not perfect, just striving to be the woman God wants me to be. Keeping my life lined up with the WORD and trusting Him every step of the way.