Suddenly Single: Being Transparent.
Hey guys! Let’s chit chat a little bit. Once again this will be one of those Transparent posts.
I am really starting to like doing these because they show me how much progress I’ve made AND they encourage you guys as well.
Soooooooo… I went back to work full time. Let me tell you why this felt like such a step backwards.
I never EVER wanted to sew for people. Y’all know how y’all can be. I didn’t want to let people stop me from loving what I do. Folks will make you forget you know Jesus and you KNOW I’m telling the truth.
Once I FINALLY started I KNEW without a doubt that this was what I was supposed to be doing. Fast forward a couple of years and I had a grand opening for my very own sewing space. Had my name on the window and everything and I was TERRIFIED. It took me about 6 months to even “tell anyone” other than my clients that I actually had a space. Why? Because I was scared. I was scared that it would seem like a failure if for whatever reason I couldn’t keep my space.
Well in November 2016 I had to let my space go. Let me tell you (part of the reason)why.
I went back to work full time. While my business was doing great, it wasn’t consistent enough to sustain me and my family and I wasn’t using my space as much anymore. I was literally there MAYBE once a week. Can I tell you I felt like a FAILURE!? I really mean that.
It wasn’t until February of 2017 that I start letting my clients know that I was working full time.
The support has been AMAZING. If I’m honest I have more work now than I did when I wasn’t working full time. There are days when I have to take a PTO day (or two) just to catch up on orders.
I may not have office space anymore HOWEVER something greater is on the way and I can not WAIT to share it with you all. My clients meet me at a kinda central location where I get their measurements, do fittings and they pick up their garments. Really similar to how I was doing it in the beginning but I’m in ONE location now instead of driving all across the city to meet people.
On this journey I am learning SO much about myself. I am so much stronger than I EVER realized and I am NOT a failure. I am successful in all that I do and I will CONTINUE to be successful.
Why am I being so open with you all? I want you know that if you have a dream and you are working full time? YOU CAN STILL DO IT.
I work 8:30-5 M-F
Just today I three clients. I saw one at 7:30, 8:00, and 8:15 and I was finished in enough time to make a post office run AND be at work on time @ 8am. When I get off at 5:00 I have a client at 5:30 and one at 6:00pm. It’s a lot but it’s my PASSION so I get it done.
I still cook because I’m greedy and my kids still have to eat lol. The other day I got up at 4am, cooked dinner, cleaned up my sewing mess from the previous night and started to prep what I needed to sew when I got off work. When I finished all of that it was time for me to leave for work. Is it a lot? YES but there is NO way I’m going to work for someone else for EIGHT hours and let MY dream go. No ma’am. Not today. Not ever.
I TYPICALLY try to go to bed around 10 or 11pm. I am TYPICALLY up at 5 every morning. I get up at 4am when I need to go buy groceries. I used to HATE Walmart, but now I don’t like stopping ANYWHERE on my way home and Publix isn’t open 24 hours lol. I will go on Saturday morning if there is something I need or send Kayla when she get’s home from school. One of the great benefits to having a kid that drives still at home lol.
So if you are working 8-5 AND working on your dream, keep it up. You aren’t a failure. You ARE successful. It won’t be that way always. This is just a part of my journey.